Saturday, 16 June 2018

What i've been reading and watching recently

Hey guys! I hope you are doing well! Today I wanted to do a post talking about the things I have been reading and watching recently! If you have any recommendations of TV shows or books then please let me know I am always on the lookout for new ones!


The Night Circus (Erin Morgenstern): I actually did a full review of this book which I'll link here so I won't talk about it too much! But I really enjoyed this book and if you do like fantasy and magic I think you will also really enjoy it, definitely up there with my favourite books I've read this year.

Get your shit together (Sarah Knight): I read the life-changing magic of not giving a fuck earlier in the year and while I liked it I didn't love it but I have to say get your shit together is way more up my street! I felt like it resonated a bit more with me,  I thought the life-changing magic was aimed at people a bit older than me but I felt a bit more of a connection with this one! If you are looking for an unusual self-help book I would recommend this book and I am really excited to pick up her third book you do you at some point.

The Girl Before (JP Delany): I decided not to do a full review of this book but I will give you a quick summary of what I thought! It is a psychological thriller book compared to the likes of Girl on the train. I wasn't too sure what to expect when I read this book but to be honest it wasn't my favourite book, it definitely wasn't as gripping as Girl on the train! But I enjoyed it on a superficial level and there were a few twists and turns and I think it would be a good beach read. Bit of a warning, it has quite a lot of fifty shades of grey esque sex scenes in which I wasn't the biggest fan of which put me off the book a bit and there were some other things I didn't agree with.

Release (Patrick Ness): I just finished this book today and I really enjoyed it. It was really different (I've read a lot of different books recently!) and again I wasn't sure what to expect but I have wanted to read it for ages! I am going to put up a full review of this I think next week so I won't write too much here, but I did enjoy it!


Deadpool 2: I went to the cinema to see the latest Deadpool and I really enjoyed it! I found it pretty funny and silly and a good watch!

The Intern: I watched this film the other day on Netflix and I loved it! I honestly fell in love with this film I thought it was the cutest thing! If you're looking for a cute heartwarming film to watch when it's raining outside I would really recommend this!

Edge of 17: I finally got round to watching this film now that it's been put on Netflix! I did enjoy this film actually, it wasn't quite up to the hype I don't think, but I still thought it was pretty funny and really sad at the same time and super relatable!

Alice Through the Looking-glass: I really enjoyed Alice in Wonderland so I wanted to give this a watch and I really liked it! It was pretty amusing and really pretty to watch! I think this is a good film for all ages to watch!

TV Shows: 

Safe: Me and my friend at uni watched this over two days! There are only 10 episodes and it's pretty tense so it's really easy to get through! I did like this show but I guessed the ending and I didn't think it was absolutely amazing like some of the reviews I was reading! But I did like it and I would still recommend, I just didn't think it was absolutely insane.

The Alienist: I loved this T.V series! I found it was really gripping and it was pretty intense! You have to stay pretty focused though and I often had to go back because I had missed things! I thought the ending was a bit anti-climatic but I really hope they make a season 2 because I really got into the characters and I think there is a potential for the characters and I want to learn more about them.

13 reasons why season 2: This has been talked about so much recently and I don't think there's anything I particularly want to add that hasn't been said already to be honest! I think that it wasn't as gripping as the first season and I kind of wish they would have given it a happy ending and then just ended it if I am being honest I don't really want a third season!

I Hope you enjoyed this post! Like it said if you have any recommendations for me please let me know!
Lots of love,
Eleanor x

Monday, 4 June 2018

Testing Obsession eyeshadows and highlighter

Hey guys! I hope you are all doing well! Despite eyeshadows being my one true love, I actually haven't bought one for ages, nor have I done a blog post about an eyeshadow palette for a long time! But there have been a few eyeshadow palettes I have had my eye on for a bit, one of those being the new (ish) Obsession customisable palettes, so when I spotted the 6 single eyeshadows/highlighters/bronzers/blushes for £12 with a free palette I couldn't resist picking some up and I thought I would share my thoughts. Just a warning, there may be a few eyeshadow palette reviews coming up through June!

Obsession is a brand owned by Tam beauty I think, and you can currently only buy it online and in Boots stores. Their products are incredibly affordable, with each single eyeshadow retailing for just £3. Unfortunately, since their eyeshadows are single you need to buy a palette too, but these are cheap ranging from £4-£6 for a medium palette (6 spaces) or £6-£8 for a large palette (12 spaces).  The eyeshadows do pop in and out easily but they feel secure in the palette.

I decided to try 5 eyeshadows and one highlighter too and I went for the shiny gold palette over the matte black one. The colours I decided to go for were (Top row from L-R)  Lightning, Sun Ray, Brooklyn, (bottom row, L-R) Crimson, Gold and St Tropez. As you can see, the only matte colour I went for was the matte pink, Sun Ray, so this definitely isn't a palette I can use just on it's own really but I wanted to grab some colours I didn't really have in my other (many) palettes.

The shade "lightning" for me is the highlight shade, but I did pick up Gold too which is also technically a highlight shade but it's obviously too dark for me but I wanted it as an eyeshadow. To be honest, lightning isn't my favourite highlighter in the world, I do like it but it's very glittery and sheer, and the glitter does spread a bit too. If you hate glitter highlights and love more of a "sheen" you will not like this highlight! But it does look really nice as an inner corner highlight, I'm just not a big fan of it as a cheekbone highlight, or perhaps it would be pretty fun for a festival!

Nevertheless, the 5 eyeshadows I absolutely love! As you can see from the swatches, they're really pigmented and they blend in really easily. The only colours that don't show up well as a swatch is lightning obviously as it's so sheer and Sun Ray, but this pink is pigmented on the lid it just doesn't swatch as well as it is matte. The green colour, St Tropez, is so bright and lovely and probably my favourite colour in the set. I created a look with this palette bringing the pink (Sun Ray) into the crease, and building up a halo eye with Brooklyn and Crimson and popping St Tropez in the middle for a fun colourful eye! I also did it with Gold over the lid too for a bit more of a subtle look.

Overall I would recommend these eyeshadows and I am definitely going to pick up some more colours!
Have you tried Obsession before?
Lots of love,
Eleanor x

Monday, 28 May 2018

The Night Circus book review

Hey guys! I hope you are doing well! Now that I have finished my exams I have really wanted to get back into reading this summer and try and get back to the library and read some more! I bought The Night Circus by Erin Morganstern a while ago but I have saved it until I finished my exams to read it and I thought I would do a review on it!

I actually went into this book blind, I had heard a lot of good reviews for it but I had no idea about the plot line or what the book was about at all and the blurb of the book gives very little away too. But the basic story line is about these two great magicians, who have very different ways of teaching, pick a child and teach them magic. Then over the years there is this mysterious test that the children are being taught for. This time the stage of the test is a mysterious travailing circus and things are made more complicated when the two contestants, Celia and Marco, meet and fall in love.

The thing with this book is that it has a large focus on this magical circus, made up of the amazing tents as well as the main story line which I personally loved. I really liked this book for its gorgeous descriptions and it's imagery. It really feels like you're stepping into this magical world and that personally kept me reading. For me, the characters and the plot line were almost secondary to the circus if that makes sense, which I was fine with since I wasn't the biggest fan of many of the characters if I am being honest.

Having said that, I don't think this book is for everyone. While I personally loved reading about the circus so much I could totally understand how people would find this book "boring". It's not exactly action packed, there are no big twists or turns and it sort of feels like in terms of the actual so called test Celia and Marco have to do, nothing really happens until the end and even then it's a bit of a strange ending. This book had a serious "Jonathan Strange and Mr Norrell" feel to it, a book I read last year and personally loved so this kind of book is definitely on my wavelength and if you read that book and loved it then I think you will really like this book too. But when reading this be prepared for a large focus on the circus itself and the circus characters and the meetings about the circus rather than the plot line I discussed above.

For me the main reason I loved this book was really the description of the circus and all of the tents which are in the circus Morgenstern's writing style and description made it so easy to visual the circus and it made me just want to crawl inside the pages and never leave! It is a gorgeous book to read but like I said above, it's not a book I would recommend to everyone and if you love action packed "exciting" books then I don't really think this is the book for you! But if you love magic and lovely imagery with an air of mystery then I think you will!

Lots of love,
Eleanor x

Thursday, 17 May 2018

Easy student recipes pt2

Hey guys! I am back to blogging again! I have been away for a bit while I was coming towards the end of my third year because things have just been so busy and stressful recently and I just felt like I couldn't concentrate properly on writing blog posts, and to be honest I just had no creativity while I was revising! But I had my last exam on Monday so I am hoping to be back blogging once or twice a week!

A while ago I made a blog post on some easy student recipes for the student who can't cook! And I thought it was about time I made a second part to that and shared some more recipes for you guys who struggle with thinking of meals or cooking at uni! As with the first part, these recipes are really really simple with not so many ingredients! Hopefully, this will help you with a few recipes that you might not have thought of to make!

Pitta Bread Pizzas: 

This is a really easy three ingredient recipe that is great for when you're on a budget and can't afford to buy a dominoes! Or want a bit of a healthy alternative to normal pizza.
You need:
Pitta bread
tomato puree
(any other extra things you want to pop on)

Just assemble the pizzas by spreading the tomato puree on the pitta bread's and pop the cheese on top! I would say about two per person, and the great thing is you can freeze pitta bread's too so you can always keep some in your freezer for an easy meal. Put them in the oven for about ten minutes or grill them for about 3-5 minutes.

Pasta bake:

This is quite a classic recipe that, if you're starting to cook for yourself for the first time, might be useful to know!
You need:
a filling (veggies, ie peppers, broccoli ect or meat, chicken, bacon, chorizo or tuna are all really nice)
a pasta bake sauce ( a shop bought one or make your own if you're feeling fancy)

First of all, cook the pasta for a little bit shorter than you would normally. While doing this preheat the oven. While the pasta is cooking, also cook your filling too ie your chicken or your veggies ect. Then pop the pasta into a baking dish, and add the sauce to it and the filling. Then top it off with cheese and put it in the oven for about 25 minutes.

Jacket potatoes/ jacket sweet potatoes:

This is one of my go-to recipes on a weekday night that I go back to all the time! Its so easy and if you're cooking for yourself I think its so easy to make! I often swap a white potato for a sweet potato instead and they're just so gorgeous! This is so simple just pop the potato in the oven for 1 hour and top it off with whatever you want. My personal favourite way to eat them is to top them off with hummus with a side of fresh tomatoes peppers and cucumber! It's a pretty tasty healthy midweek dinner.


This is a super easy recipe to make that's really nice for a weekend treat for every student. You can buy the kits in any supermarket, including aldi and they come with tortillas, a spice mix and usually some salsa so all you need to do is buy some chicken breasts and peppers or if you're making veggie ones whatever veggies you want! Because the kits come with 8 tortillas, this is a really good one to make between a few of your housemates, because you can all chip in for the ingredients and make it pretty cheap! Or it could just be dinner for a couple of nights...
You need:
oil/ cooking spray
A fajita kit
Chicken breasts

Spray/ oil up a pan and cook the chicken and add the spices, then add the peppers to cook too. Warm the tortilla wraps up in the oven/ microwave and then assemble them together!

And there you have it! Some really easy recipes that require a small amount of ingredients for you guys to make! If you guys would like me to take this further and do some super student cooking basics or some tips on how to stay healthy at uni while still on a budget then please let me know because I'd love to do some more!
Lots of love,
Eleanor x

Monday, 23 April 2018

Fearing my own patients- The Secret Psychiatrist

Hey! I hope you guys are doing well! Sorry about the lack of posts at the moment, I am really busy with third year stuff but I promise when my exams are over (three weeks) I will be back as normal. Today though we have a really special article from the Secret Psychiatrist all about fearing their mental health patients. It's really interesting and I hope you guys enjoy it! Love, Eleanor x

When you go to work do you expect to be hit? When you walk out of the office, do you expect to be spat at? When you go to the car park do you expect to have a note stating someone will kill you?

I apologies to start this article with such force, however this is my life. I became a doctor with the plain intention of saving a life. It sounds cliché, I admit, but one does not sacrifice their life for one with constant examinations into their thirties, missing your own birthdays as well as important family events, doing 84 hours a week, for their own fun as a doctor. It is with the primary aim of wanting to help people.

I had intended to be a surgeon, I admit it. I enjoyed getting my hands technical with grasping the stitch in a beautiful pattern, to solve a problem then and there, the fast pace, the adrenaline, the actual life in your hands. It was an intoxicating feeling. Then, for one fleeting week, I was exposed to psychiatry whilst being a junior doctor. I had a poor experience in medical school of psychiatry and never got to grips with what it was. I was clueless. If I’m honest, which I always am, you also see the world of medical specialties in a different light once you actually become a doctor. How you view specialties as a medical student is far different to actually working within it as the doctor. In my fleeting week, I was one of the doctors in the psychiatry department. It felt like I had met my soul mate. The instant attraction. Psychiatry was my partner. From that week, I changed my career route to psychiatry and I have never looked back. Gone are the days of bright theatre lights, the rubber gloves suited and booted for surgery, the blood, the organs, and the sutures. I entered through the doors to the Mind, the ocean of personalities, the psychodynamic rays of light, and found my new forefather: Freud.

But with this magical land of neologisms, I came across a demon. That demon was staff abuse. Psychiatry does deal with a mix of patients, and usually in hospital you face the most psychotic patients at their worst. When in such a state, there can be an increased risk of aggression and hostility towards the forefront staff.

There is also a sub speciality of forensic psychiatry, in which you have patients with mental health from a background of some sort of forensic involvement, either directly from prison or with a past history of such. There are rapists, there are paedophiles, and there are psychopaths. I as a doctor cannot choose whom I want to treat. We see the extreme, and treat the extreme.

But this comes with risk, and the risk is normally to us as staff. A psychiatrist has a lifetime risk of being stalked by a patient/or a relative of a patient up to 20%. I have seen staff assaulted, threatened, abused by their patients, and in the sad reality there can be deaths. I am not saying that all patients are at high risk of harm to their staff like this, but that does not mean there are not any statistics of staff not being harmed. I never thought I would have to look at my personal safety when coming to work, but I do. It’s a reality for all of us psychiatric staff. I have been threatened myself and been very nearly attacked by my patients. I have had to make police reports, and take strategies to make sure that I am as a safe as possible. I have had to change my social media so that patients are less likely able to stalk me, and no longer take my car to work as colleagues have had threatening notes left on their cars. I would be lying if I said at times I am not scared of my profession. I have had times when I have not been able to sleep for replaying a near miss incident of a patient trying to attack me earlier that day. I’m not a ninja. I am a doctor to heal. I have had friends say: “well what do you expect, you chose mental health?” That is a stigmatised comment, I know, but the fear is there, and it’s prominent. I commend all the staff, especially the nursing staff for the risks they face at work. I love my job, and I still don’t think I would chose to be another kind of doctor other than a psychiatrist.

 I have taken an oath to respect my patients no matter who they are and treat them with the best care I possibly can. However, that does not mean I should fear for my life.

The Secret Psychiatrist
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Friday, 13 April 2018

The Million Dollar Blog- Book review

Hey guys! Hope you are doing well! I am super stressed myself as I am coming closer to the end of third year with a lot of deadlines and an exam! So just to warn you that over the next month my blogging might be a bit disarrayed!

Today I wanted to do a book review of the Million Dollar blog by Natasha Courtenay-Smith who is a British entrepreneur. She wrote this book to help bloggers start a blog, get money from their blog, and improve their existing one. Needless to say, as someone who has had a blog for over four years, I was really interested in this book.

Some of this book wasn't entirely useful obviously, as I already have a blog but a lot of it really was! I think there are a lot of really good tips in here for any blogger at any stage in their blogging journey, or if you are thinking about starting. As I was reading, I noticed that this book is really catered towards people who are wanting to start a business, so if you're wanting to use a blog to sell things if I would really recommend this book! But since I don't blog for that purpose some of this wasn't as useful but I still got a lot from this.

One of my favourite things about this book are the interviews with other bloggers. It is absolutely jam-packed with snippets from bloggers and YouTubers and CEO's and authors who have first-hand experience of getting a really successful blog from nothing and I found this so useful and interesting to read! I would honestly recommend this book just for the interviews honestly I really loved that Natasha chose to include so many.

It also had some really useful tips on how to get money from blogging. I personally don't really earn money from blogging but it is something that I am starting to think about for the future and it had some really useful ideas that I'd never considered before. I think I'll definitely come back to these pages particularly and use them to help me in the future!

First and foremost as well, I think if you're going through a serious blogging rut this book is really useful as all of the interviews and tips make you feel so motivated! Especially if you are struggling to stay motivated because of the views you've got and things like that then this book can really help you focus on the end goal. As well, I think it would really improve motivation to keep going and to improve your blog too and maybe take it a bit more seriously. It definitely widened my eyes to how to take my blog further and to keep improving and what to do in order to help me reach my blogging goals.

I think this book will be one I come back to and use as a reference point too because it really had some great ideas!
Overall I would really recommend this book if you are a blogger or thinking about getting into blogging or need some more motivation!
Lots of love,
Eleanor x

Wednesday, 4 April 2018

Bad Gal Bang mascara honest thoughts and review

Hey guys! I hope you are doing well! I am well into exam/ dissertation stress now but I wanted to take a little break and bring you a new post! I realise that there are like 1000 blog post and youtube videos on this mascara right now but I wanted to share my own thoughts and opinions on this!

Unless you have been living under a rock, you will know all about Benefit's latest mascara reveal, the bad gal bang mascara. I am not going to lie, guys, I got taken in by all the hype to get this, and this is my first ever high-end mascara! If you read my posts a lot you probably know that I love drugstore makeup, nearly everything I own is drugstore, I am like the opposite of a makeup snob! I would 100% prefer to get multiple things for the same price as one high-end thing! But I really did want to try this new mascara.

I have the shortest and the straightest lashes in the world. I was not at all blessed by the eyelash god (not to mention the fact that I have 0 lashes on my bottom lashes but hey ho). So hearing about the amount of volume this mascara gives I had to run to get it!

Firstly, I love the brush! It's quite thin which I like as it makes it easy to get to the roots of the eyes. But, what you have heard is correct my friends, this mascara is really really wet. It's such a wet formula (we will see how it goes as it starts to dry up) but it means that it's quite easy to make a mess. So if you're not the neatest of mascara users (?) then you might find this one quite hard as it transfers easily before it dries down.

This mascara is really lengthening, it makes my lashes look about 5 times longer. But, it can look quite clumpy as we have all seen. I just would say to watch out for how many layers you're putting on, one too many and it is pretty clumpy, but if I am being honest the clumpiness doesn't really bother me that much? Like yeah, it's not very separating but it doesn't look awful I don't think as long as you know when to stop.

Despite being really lengthening, it's not very curling which was a big disappointment for me!!! I really wanted some more curl, so even though it makes my lashes long, I find that it doesn't give them much lift actually which I really need so for that reason I probably wouldn't buy again, Miss Baby Roll by L'oreal gives me a bit more curl to be honest.

The other thing about this mascara is that it smudges pretty badly actually. Like towards the end of the night I am looking pretty panda eye's like which is pretty annoying.

Like I do quite like this mascara but for me it just really isn't lifting at all? It keeps my lashes pretty straight so I feel like if you have naturally curly lashes this will look amazing, as it does make my lashes pretty long and I am definitely going to keep using it until it runs out but I can't see myself repurchasing if I am being completely honest!

What did you think of this? Let me know!
Lots of love,
Eleanor x